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About Me
I look at life through a lens tinted with cynicism. I am thrifty with money, hence very much depriving myself of material fulfilment most of the time.And I think that paying >RM10 for a cup of coffee or a cone of ice-cream is absurd. Happiness comes from having ample time to stay in bed and read/write. I detest pop trash of the latter day and have turned to alternative rock/rock for solace. And I like creative writing. :)
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Thursday, October 26, 2006 "Terminator meets Jesus"
A must-see.
I almost fell from my chair when I first watched it several years ago. ^^ "pontius pilate at 10 o'clock!"
EL Tuesday, October 24, 2006
This guy...by the name Andrew Choo...he has a website with his croonies...and they give out answers to the PMR Papers. Okay so I daren't mark a single paper of mine, but I finally did, after spending like 1/2 hour staring at the link that says "Jawapan Sebenar PMR 2006". The verdict? So far I have marked Geografi and Sejarah, and if this fella is right...then it's 2 A's in the hat! (Of course I heard about A.Choo from Ms Yeoh who has already marked her papers, and Mr. Teh who has the guts to mark his BM paper. Geniuses.)
My mum is pestering me to start form 4 syllabus already. I guess she doesn't want my brain to rot away within this 2 months. -_-' Oh and a friend of mine from de orchestra who started playing GB later than I did is already a wooden hammer while I'm stuck as a NOOB. -_- "There are no accidents." - Dr. Lawrence E. Carter EL Wednesday, October 18, 2006
okay, happier times ahead!
yesterday went to school, nth much, Kempas had their football match, we did Geo quiz (and *gasp* I didn't know what was the capital of Italy, Spain, Maldives...), then I got introduced to "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" by di-anne. I know I'm late, so stop throwing these Bata shoes at me. Anyway, it's INTERESTING (i'm not gonna say it rocks or what), might borrow the book from someone, somewhere. Later on after recess was spelling-bee competition, blah, compete til left di-anne, simone, and I. Simone got 1st, Di-anne 2nd, and me *sniff* last. (Just because of a stupid word called "griffonage" which I spelt as "griffenage"...SO CLOSE. GAH.) Then duty time. Caught up with 2 months worth of abandoned work, while the rest did stock check. Sigh. Count the merits and dimerits until pening kepala. Dem sick of numbers now. Then it seem that the afternoon session merits weren't done properly by the person before, so I had to count the entire year's merits. Couldn't finish, brought a year worth of laporan harian's home. Next day woke up, oh hell, it was aleady 8.00am, oh well, so continued doing the merits until 12.00pm, then went to school to return the reports, no one seemed to scold me for wearing pj shirt into the library, keke. Still befuddled by the new PPS Contoh System. Gah, dem blur now, dunno how to plan it. Suggestions would be most appreciated. Bindi Irwin to follow her dad's footsteps? Somehow I pity the poor kid, no proper childhood lar... SEL
Here I am, taking the study material for this month's JHSD Meet and dissecting it like a cockroach, and studying its contents. Gosh, the topic's tough...sometimes I don't understand a single word they're discussing about. =/ Sigh.
And if that isn't enough for my already-had-enough-of-the-world day, I told my overeactive mother that the PD trip with my gco folks will be costing us RM100. And she went something like, "wah you siao ah they're sucking money from you issit what kind of cultural group is this suck money from little girls don't go." =/ Like, wth? She's going back on her words. I pride myself on being a filial daughter but sometimes I really want to fight back. No handphone, no going out with friends, no long conversations on phone, no going to friend's house, no going to neighbor's house, no buying new clothes, no skirts, no books costing more than RM10, no elaborate face/hair care products, no original VCDs/CDs/DVDs, no boyfriends, no jogging around the neighborhood, no cycling, no swimming, no camps, what other no's can you give me??? I'm not going to go "you're destroying my youth!", but sometimes it's really challenging to live up to your expectations lor...all that you expect of me, no.1 in Gakkai, no.1 in cultural group, no.1 in studies, no.1 in language fluency, no.1 in anything, everything I do... I understand that you expect a lot from me because I am the youngest, and your ONLY daughter. But that doesn't mean I have to be your precious lil' girl all the time. I gotta grow up, ma. I gotta learn how to socialise properly, what unwritten rules the society has, how to behave properly, how to deal with attendants...I can't grow up in this little protective shell you have hardened around me anymore. My personal growth's stunted, you know? When I watch as you beam with pride at my success--performances, competitions, awards, exam results...I will think to myself, is that my reward? to see you so happy? to see your proud smile and to hear your praises? I wish it was enough, but it wasn't. I want to grow up, to see the world, but you wouldn't. Hey, don't you always want the best for me? Then why am I being restricted to blossom into a streetsmart girl? Is it because you aren't ready to let go of that little baby girl you love so much? = ( Sometimes you complain that I go out for activities too much, especially GCO practices. Well, you wanna know why? It's the only time when I get to do things freely without you knowing. That was why Perak CCF was so "life-changing" for me. Sort of like my first timid step into the real world alone, independent, out of the field of your watchful eyes. You know why I always looked forward to practices although I'm bound to be scolded for not practising? It's because of those tiny opportunities in these tiny moments which you seize at because you'd never know when you'll ever going to get it again. When I am a totally different person, and you're not there to stop me from going out for yamcha at mamak stalls, hitching rides from fellow members, dining with friends you never approved of... Someday I hope you'd understand how I'm feeling, instead of always dismissing me and thinking "she'll soon forget all about it.", and how it feels like being such a social outcast. Meanwhile, I will just swallow it down, and wait patiently for that dear day to come. I love you, ma, I really do, you'll never find another daughter that loves you better, but if you could just give me a small measure of freedom...just one small bit... forgive me for such an emo post. I'm feeling much, much better now. =] EL Sunday, October 15, 2006 doodlings...
Dear earthlings.
I have been away. PMR is over and what can I say? I'm not allowed to go out. Which is sort of sad for a post-PMRer. No movies, no bookstore, no electronic devices...hmm, that's sad. But I guess I gotta understand my family's financial position now. Anyway, updates of the past days? Hmm, mostly orchestra practices and meetings, hehe. Finally got my scores, wah lao eh, listen to the original mp3 while looking at the score also tak mampu faham score lahh...oh yeah, and a certain composer by the name Wolfgang Amadeus decided that he didn't like the clarinets at that moment and didn't compose for the clarinetists, so we had to use oboe score instead, which is really mind-bogging because we had to transpose it by sight and it's in A Major so it becomes B major which is one of the most terrifying majors besides F# major, and my senior transposed it in a program but his dear ole printer decided that his owner isn't treating it well and broke down of some sort, so we're using the same old oboe score again...bah, nevermind. And our much anticipated song from MPO arrived for our little "colourful" Rainbow Junior Choir last night without much grandeur. BTW, the performance will be in Dewan Philharmonik Petronas on Christmas day, and the song we'll be presenting to you folks is....*drums roll* "Rudolph the red nosed reindeer, had a very shiny nose..." *faints in shock* and it came to me as a big shock because 3/4 of the choir has never heard the song. WHAT??? So this morning was junior practice, I joined in as a junior since my staccatos and tonguing are really bad, showed them (Zhi Lin, Woei Fong and Song Yeu lao shi) some really lousy magic tricks with poker card decks where I had to show them the "secret" so they won't boycott the practice instead. =.=' Then 12.00 ZL and WF went home, so we went to canteen, got caught up with my bro 'Han, PakKin, Wei Chung n sis, Mun Yee, Ah Kam, Ellie, etc etc...so caught up until we forgot the time, because we were going to watch "Play to Fight", some documentary-short film sort, in WKSGM, at 1.00pm, and by the time we glanced at our watches it was 12.30pm, wah, trust Song Yeu to drive like the speed demon. =.=' I found myself constantly reaching out with my foot for the brake that wasn't there...lunch was simple, haha, becamse SY's Cheezels holder. Reached there perfectly on time. [Oh and today marks the 15th time I was assumed a college student, where a foreigner who came to the film presentation with the Embassy and whom I sat beside, turned and smiled and asked, "oh, so you came with the college...?" =.=' And trust SY to add salt to wound by saying, "no, she's actually only form 3." -___-', although this mishap cannot beat the track record of my first conductor who thought (quoting Mr. Wong) "oh, sorry I thought you've finished college already."] BAKA. Anyway, the film is superb. It's actually about the Venezuela System where they take in more than 250,000 under-priviledged children and nurture them in the world of music. And mark my words, this is the biggest orchestra I have ever seen in my life.
Screenshots. Background is the choir, also under the Venezuela program.
This soloist is just 8 years old. Make you wanna cringe in your seat in shame ey? They documented some of the players impressions and talents. There was this boy, I think he's my age, who actually, I dunno, did lightning fast jiggles on his double bass? Like, heck I never knew you could do that on a double bass! And this 8 year old could play the trumpet really well that it kinda made us feel really, really humbled. By the way, their performances are so beautiful and horribly majestic that you can't help but cry with awe. And they are just children. Shame on you! Oh well, the film ended before I knew it. Song Yeu had his car crammed with the girls, so I got kicked out, so sad, can kick out your own section members wan ah??? hehe. Ma finally came, went home, bade korkor goodbye, then went to sleep, *snore snore* School tomorrow, sigh. Oh well, busy week ahead! + oil + oil...
SEL Sunday, October 08, 2006 Yep, PMR's finally over!!! I'm going to miss Geography. I WON'T miss KH. First thing I did after PMR was a marathon of 7 hours in-front-of-the-computer(1/2 hour was used trying to conquer this game, check it out, http://www.eyezmaze.com/grow/cube/index.html) . Then went for Sue Ann's mooncake festival party, before that went to 1U, then came back, sleep sleep at 12.30am. Next day, woke up late (without feeling guilty), went for Phoenix Meet, topic's about Life and Death, interesting...then chose GCO over sleep, went to GCO Room, got my first taste of "The Launch", arranged by Mr. CL Wong himself (the oboist dude) which changes majors about 12 times =.=', dem hard weih, sat there watching CHin Choon and her bunch of junior cellists, then went out makan with Ah Kam and Amanda. Ate the tom yam until can cry(ah lum will be terrified by this dish), gossiped over ais kacang. Followed Johan home, went to Giant for our typical RM1.49 meal, met Pn Yong (KH teacher), she didn't recognize me =/, Can't blame her. After another round of GrowCube (finally solved it!) sleep sleep sleep... Sunday, today, woke up late, feeling VERY guilty because we were late for Imbi Kaikan cleaning, ahhh, so hurriedly washed up, then flew to Imbi, KL, reached there when they were almost done. =/ gah, nothing for me to do except to clean the windows. The dog in Imbi is superbly adorable, which reminds me...what happened to BK's dog ah?? Anyway, after breakfast, ma and I explored "Beryl's Choclate Kingdom". Gosh the chocolate aroma was so damned strong weih, but Beryl's chocolates are hellishly expensive. oh well. They're good. =) Then went to WK-SGM, jln Bukit Bintang. Was sorta early, oh well, since woodwinders' session will only be starting at 11.00am, so I was an hour early. Thankfully Pak Lim, Vincent, Teng Jun, etc were already there. Long time no see peepz! So practiced a little, learned new techniques from Vincent (so ironic cuz' it's always flutists and oboeists training me and NOT my own section), snapped a few shots...couldn't resist mate.
Our guest of honour, Giovanni Pasini (if u find this site I apologize because I really don't know how to spell ur name), the principal violist from Malaysia Philharmonik Orchestra, is here to teach us (FOC!) and guide us through the world of music. ^^ (hmm, darn blogger don't seem to like my photos.Hmm) the ever competitive Vincent and Ah Lum. In a musical duel. I mean duet. Anyway, soon everyone came, complained it was hot, keke, Song Yeu was walking around looking for the main switch to the air-conditioner... I have many videos but won't be uploading them...it's very controversial. xD So 11.00am arrived, we joined the strings section, phew, the song (Sinfonia blah blah in A major, by Mozart) would not have been hard if:- 1. it was not an oboe score. Yes, the song does not have clarinet parts, so we're playing 2nd oboe. =.=' 2. we didn't have to transpose it by sight. Whatever we see must translate in our minds as a note higher. =.=' 3. It wasn't in A major. If not bad enough, once it is transposed it becomes a B major, o.O my weakest major. Semua kecuali B becomes #. =.=' can you imagine?? Anyway, Giovanni has always been a kind soul, utmost understanding, so we, or more appropriately I, was not grounded or beaten up or verbally roasted. Play until the beginning of Andante, then he announces, "lunch time" which is heard by song yeu as "last time". Like, huh, play again??? lol. And the hazee, urgh!!! I could barely see the next building. I could barely breathe without coughing. Those bloody Indonesians better do something. Okay not that i have any grudges against Indonesians (I have a really great Indonesian friend but he's back in Indonesia now), but seriously, has that country ever done anything beneficial for us? So far there's konfrontasi, the hazes in the previous years, immigrants, now another round of forest burning? SEL |
